New Beginings

I don't lack self confidence, what I lack is self respect. There have been many times in my life when I try to believe in the good of people, by doing that in many cases I have let those people walk all over me. Just the other day I was thinking of a friend that I had known, we were great friends and he did something horrible to me(long story). After this incident I pretended like it never happened, I figured forgetting about it would be easier than confronting the situation. What I realized is that pretending made things easier but in the end diminished the self respect I once had. I kept my mouth shut, when I know if I could go back I would have done the right thing.

These last years instead of blossoming into the person I thought I would be I have withered away. I was a flower that slowly died just before reaching her peak of beauty. I cannot blame this on the strong rays of the sun, I can only blame it on my self. I have taken a few steps back, now its time to take a few leaps forward.