Home

Home,

where scents bring you back to moments,

where you are able to be at peace.

Home is where you have people you love

peace, love, comfort

My parents home was always my home until I met you.

You are my home,

you've brought me comfort, love and peace

I've created a home with you,

I'm scared to lose it.

Layers

You are not who you said you were. Your layer have fallen to reveal the true you.

While for me its not that I wasn't who you thought I was... I am who I've always been, yet its the fire inside me that has died.

I use to be a growing tree... but I ran into a tough time in my life where a part of me died.

Now I'm just waiting for the next rain to fall

The rain that will help me revive.

Symbolic Interactionism (the world is my theater)

The world is our theater and we are merely actors. Life is like an impromptu play that has its blue print but the out come may change. Each society has its rules and expectation, I know I've heard this example be given millions of times but even an elevator has its specific rules that as a society we agree on. When standing in an elevator the rule is that you stand facing the front of the elevator not facing the back. If anyone would do otherwise this would be unacceptable and people would immediately react to what is not normal. We all know that there is a road that we must take but for the most part that includes going to school, getting married, having kids. If people fall out of that basic blue print than we are odd, different, unsuccessful. I really wouldn't say this is the case... but I find my self seeing people try so hard to complete their social obligation without doing it for the right reason. I see girls getting married not for the sake of love but for the sake of marriage, "Its what I'm suppose to do".

One day I do want to get married but not because I feel my clock is ticking, or that all my friends are getting married, or for a god damn ring that will last longer than my life, but because it is an honest relationship. Its with a person that wont give up, like so many others do. Life changes, loves changes, and we must keep the people that truly love us close because those are the ones that cannot be replaced. Family is primarily important to me because they are people that are always there for me as well as a few selective friends.

Although these major events are part of our lives, if we choose to reject fitting into this perfect squares does that make us weird? Are we not accomplished? Are we less than everyone else? I highly doubt it, but thats why people just need to live their lives and not care what others think. Find the road less traveled by and don't look back, don't go looking for life because it will find you, and when it does make sure not to miss it. Good people don't come into peoples lives very often, thats why Its important to hold on.

Knock, Knock

I'm at your door step, hoping you'll hear me.

I keep making excuses... maybe your in the shower. playing a video game. listening to music.

So I wait.... I've been waiting too long

Its getting cold but I have hope.

Hope......

So I wait... I knock... I wait...

But at some point I have to give up

I can't stay here forever.

I knock more loudly.

Please listen.

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It's only after we've lost everything that we're free to do anything.

It could happen...

Today I was randomly thinking about an old customer I use to help at WAMU back in Oxnard. Being a teller I always helped him frequently and after about 6 months I noticed he kept having trouble balancing his account. I remember asking what had happened and he explained.

He said that he was a teacher at a local school and he had a weird pain in his arm at work one day but he decided not to report it. It ended up being a tendon in his arm that he had to go get surgery for. His workers comp. wouldn't cover it and on top of that he was unable to pay for his care for his mother and was on the verge of losing his home.

I frequently think of this guy because he was in a good situation he had a good job, a good home and just because of all the medical bills he was losing everything he ever worked for. I always hope things would have worked out for him but you never know. People tend to forget that everything we THINK we have can be taken away. Life brings on obstacles and our plan for life may not always work out.

Sky

The sky is blue which is a fact, but it also is red orange and purple... Sunrise and Sunset............ If I say its red, orange or even purple people tend to stare.. but I see the sky for more then the blueness of the average day, but more for its memorable hellos and goodbyes.

So even if I say the sky is red.. I'll hear "no its blue" but I chose to remember it for what is most preciouse to me. Its sweet goodbyes with a love or a friend.. a closing day... a new begining......