Dreams

I have vivid dreams and sometimes of things I choose to not think about in my daily life. But the truth is that there is no escaping these nightly realizations. For some reason dreams amaze people:we search for meaning within these dreams. Maybe I should keep a dream journal and maybe at some point I could figure these dreams out. But in all honesty my dreams freak me out. The other night I had a dream that Johnny was dying during a lung surgery and I knew right when his heart stopped. What does this mean? I dunno but I know for a fact that his smoking might have some sort of impact on my dream. I HATE cigarette smoking. I've had deja vu dreams and those are honestly the most difficult dreams to comprehend. Dreaming about an exact moment in the future is very weird and how is it possible?

All I know is that I need to change where my life is headed because right now its headed towards a dark lonely path. I've given so much and now its really time for me to be appreciated. But all I know is that no one can love you until you love your self. These last few years I've known where I was going but now I need to get there.